I have my reason being a workaholic

Gosh.. I just relise that i have being a workaholic this months...or a few months back...Seeing the calender for the past months have really shock me as seeing everyslot of my week have been taken up.. Well mostly taken up by to settle stuff..afterall im a leader..have to try settle prob that my member face...I even bearly seeing a slot for myself actually...Sigh...Most of the slot is fill with productions,Training and work...i really don noe when i could get time for myself.( Except my bestie force me to take a holiday to KL last 2 weeks)

Oh ya.. Remember the qoute" My motivation is my history,u got me this far, I WANT TO GO FURTHER"..I really want to go Above 4010 m/Above Sea level..after i clock in for the past mountain climb....Go figure...

Anywea.. This is myself since i enter poly..or should i say since my breakup from my relationship..which is coming to wat..3- 4 years...
Gosh 4 years has past just like that....
I wonder where is now..CGH i suppose...

Anywea.. thats my reason being workalohic...Flying here and there, events back2 back, Reaching to the next level of educations.. exploring new things that have tried b4....

But of all the jam pack secdule i have to face...I sometime tried number of dating and trying getting back to relationship...but..i failed hard times...
I juz leave fate to decide on this...i simply have no control anymore..

I juz got back having dinner with my group of bestie..and at one point they have to ask me "until when that i have to be like this...." and i was like...really no Answer for that.. i juz sit there and kept quite..reflecting...

I noe having someone is the best thing in the world that u can have.. and they noe i really that...cuz they saw me fell hard, they saw me fly high...and they saw me doing it alone...and it seem true actually.... i really need someone..

All i need in wat malay say it" Cinta yang Ikhlas" and that all i need...
and i wish one day when i say "i really want to spend my life with u" hope she would except me of wat i am now, on how i look now and accepting my passion in life and i certainly giving the same thing back to her...

Signing off....