Make Me Wonder,,,,,,

Picture Courtesy by: Lokman Aceh Adventure(peacekeeper.fotopages.com)

One of the hard hit area in a village in Aceh,Indonesia

Hey there guys, Its tuesday and i'm freaking bored at home.. I cant go anywhere cuz i have to take care of my bro, Cant call my buddy cuz most of them are schooling..SO i spend my time on bed.. Reflecting the whole day..Which it really make me wonder y my condition like this....

I hate injury..esp when it hit on my leg ...cuz I could nt run well so i have to stay at home to fully recovered. Then after recovery have to do training again..which will affect on my timing very well..

Another thing i really wonder abt myself... What happen to me for all this years,
it really hit me back all this year..good and bad..the same old topic...Relationship...

Because of bad relationship that bring me here, in poly..
Because of bad relationship that let me suffer lonely for all this years
that y i given up on it almost a year ago

Usually i run away when comes to relationship topics..Keep myself busy to avoid thinking abt this matter( thats explain my sucess entering poly, i work too hard)..but today i cant..

But sometime while u walking down orchard rd or u sitting @ coffee hse, there is a common side u will see when u are there, u will see couple everywhere..and i wish that i could be happy like them..

Its not like i'm am Desperate to have one( if i Desperate how i survive for 1 year without relationship, I'm not that kind who like rebound) to me its ok that i don't have one, but if i luckily enough to bump into one, considered that a blessing bonus for me.

Juz imagine....when u step out of the arrival hall of the airport after a successful project overseas, u seeing most ur buddy running to their special someone, huging cuz they missing each other too much...and u standing there alone at the arrival hall looking down walking toward the MRT to go home...

or

U receive a letter that u have won a award, feel excited to invite ur parent but they cant they have other family matter to handle..So in the end u going to the award ceremony alone...then after the ceremony u see flashing camera of them taking pictures together that can make memories..and you there sitting at the reception all seeing all the happy faces..

i'm sorry who those people who are bored reading thing...FYI Top right of ur screen hav a "x" sign..click it ok....

I need to let this thing out..cant keep it more longer....it will blow me off one day...

Crapping in Progress
Signing off