I juz Cant face the facts that everybody have it and i don't...

Hey Guys, Me again...

Yea have a pretty bad moring today, First i drop from my bed, then i hit my leg against the bed. Haiz.. wat a luck huh

Yea, As u see from the pic, Thats my dream when i 16 years old,being a Airborne Troopers. But since im too busy with My N levels Papers, That dream have to put on hold.

U noe, the feeling sitting in the C130, Waiting patient while the plane rose up to 10000 feet. My heart pump faster and faster. Waiting for the Jump Master signal for good to jump. And theres they go, on the time of that door open, Final check on ur buddy. Hook up and wait, wait and wait,The green light in on and There we Go... GO,GO,GO. The wind rush against me waiting for my canopy to open up. WHen it open, The best view of the air base from the bird eye view. Floating down smoothly. When we land, I don mind a rough landing cuz i juz have a best flight of my life...

HAha okok Lokman Crappy again.. everytime man.. Wake Up Lokman..

Yea, This week, first week of school and i pretty much having a good time With Mak(tas) and Aishah, This two peeps is so kecoh man..Amazing enough i went for 2 talk this week.. hmm thats good. Hmm the problem getting crappy by the days, The UT hmm.. I think i done not bad. This time i study for it man..haha. Since my buddy is all on holidays all, and i stuck here in school. We hang out frequently this week. altough we got no where to go. Causeway point will be our hang out point. As for the Drama part, hmm.. doing well actually,yesterday met up with my so Called"Girlfriend" and So called "my future mother in law" to dicuss abt the script. hmm its almost half done. I cant get myself together again, everything goes mess up again.. many thing that i suppose to do have to hold up cuz i too busy.. and i have nt book my driving lesson yet.. haiz.. HOW TO PASS LIKE THAT??? anywea will settle it later..b4 i enjoy my weekend

while i reading my script, i don noe it feel that things keep reflecting back at me negitively.. i don noe, i juz me or the feeling, its hard ah..Im acting as a bf, and i don noe wats usually bf do. It feel disheartening when reality, i don have a gf, and usually i don noe wat to do and the impression of saying my scipt as a bf is hard.. i don noe y. I think i really need that special someone. I juz cant face the facts that everybody have it and i dont.

i think my buddy are right, Im slow, Yea, i maybe fast on the wall, fast on the running road, But im slow in relationship. Me and my slow reaction in realationship. I juz need a little push, while i figure out this very slow reaction of mine.

I think its hard being me....

Ok ah.. I have nt my coffee yet and im craving of

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